Ambivalent

- Mixed/conflicted feelings, love/hate for something, someone, a certain situation.

I touched on it yesterday with regard to my contact lenses. (Which I'm not wearing today - I'll be ok - haven't driven into anything yet :P) K i d d i n g..... Anyway, today... the emotion is carried for something very different. It's only fun being lost for a short while, those moments where you're nervous, anxious and scared all at the same time creates a form of excitement somewhat. But even that, after a while fades... and then you want to know where you're going again.

FYI... my blog just bought a ticket for a ride on a rollercoaster, so when you don't get it, it's probably not expected that you do...

"Every opportunity has a shelf life.........."

Bat eyes

I have a love hate relationship with my contact lenses... they help me to see everything perfectly - LOVE... they have also decided to make one eye seriously red from some form of irritation that I don't know the reason for - HATE. I want to have eye laser surgery (laughing) so that I don't have to get in bed all comfy only to realise with all the lights out, that I still have them firmly attached to my eyeballs. Yes, you do need to remove these bad boys every evening. Or have to shut them tightly when there's crazy wind coz it dries them out to the point that i can't see. I would wear the glasses I have, except my little cousin thought it might be funny to break the gut that holds the lens in place, and whilst I'm sure taped up glasses might be super saxay... I don't think its the right look for me. So yeah, contacts love/hate. Love/hate relationships are very tiring... You're over it... but you won't do anything about it. :/

Lowest form of wit? :P

I don't like: - Stupid people

                  - Lazy people

Stupid, lazy people should not approach me... ever.. just saying. Else My bumper sticker (let your eyes gaze upwards on the screen) will have me laughing (inside of course) and leave you looking very confused and not knowing why.... :/

27.09.2011....

Over n Out

Feeling sad for two reasons: 1) Friday Night Lights came to a close for me last week, and I can honestly say that this series moved me to a point that it felt life-changing. If you haven't had the extreme fortune of witnessing this brilliant series from season 1 to finish, you might not understand or believe what it is I mean by life-changing. If this isn't enough to make you want to see for yourselves, well then you have missed out - I can tell you that much. Developed a love for Tim Riggins, he is the best 'character' I have come to know on TV in forever. In every way and every episode you can relate quite literally to the lives these people live and the things that are faced and how it develops as it gets further along. I guess that's why it captures the heart whilst watching it. 2) Entourage has one episode left of what I can confidently say is my favourite series of ALL time! While I am still - to this point - unsure of how it will go out, I am so eager to see what they have planned for the finale. This series is 100% completely defined by the cocky, vulgar and insanely funny character of Ari Gold. He is fucking brilliant! In no other tv show have I seen a role being played by someone that is sooooo spot on, from the looks he gives to the chirps to the mannerisms all round of Ari Gold. Insane. Unparalleled. Seriously. Anyway, watching this series has been an experience, and it is sad that the era of Entourage on my screen is coming to an end. Hopefully there are more captivating series out there to discover. Im not going to deny the fact that I love my TV time, but its not at the lack of having a million other non-technological hobbies. So that makes me ok with it. :) Ari Gold you are the man, I hope to see you in a series again in the future.

Ari Gold quotes:

Lloyd: Are you hiding something from me Ari?

Ari: Only my cock and my asshole Lloyd..

Mrs. Ari (doesn’t want Ari to pick up his phone during couples therapy): I ask for one hour of a day for his undevided attention, and I can’t even have that.
Ari: You could have it if you want to live in Agoura fucking Hills, and go to group therapy. But if you want a Beverly Hills mansion and you want a country club membership, and you want 9 weeks a year in a Tuscan villa, than I’m gonna need to take a call when it comes in at noon on a motherfucking wednesday.

Lloyd: Ari, you’re wearing the same suit as yesterday?
Ari: That’s because I spent the night in jail
Lloyd: OMG, Ari, why didn’t you call me?
Ari: Because you get one call and I wanted to use it on someone I like to have sex with.

(Ari is about to leave his kid's birthday party for business)
Mrs. Ari: Where are you going?
Ari: They flew in the liver, and I gotta do the transplant. Where do you think I'm going?

Ari: People, staff meeting has been cancelled. You all have one goal today: to get Vincent Chase’s brother, Johnny Chase, a job. Any job! I don’t care if it’s a porn shoot in which he is being gang raped by a gaggle of silverback apes, if there are cameras rolling, everybody wins. 10 grand for anyone that can deliver this to me, today.

Ari's Wife: What's in the bag?
Ari Gold: A kilo of blow. What's with all the fucking questions?

Jedi

Skills

Almost pulled my hair out with this snake cube, but at long last - well after 2 days, I have solved it. Awesome.

AllStarz

For the past month we have been rehearsing overtime to get polished on our dances for show night which took place on Saturday night at the Opera House. Friday night all I could do was play the dances in my mind over and over again til I eventually passed out. (According to the others - they had done exactly the same) haha. Anyway, what a ridiculously long day... it started with a stop at the shop at 7:15am getting a breakfast muffin, redbull and sweets and snacks to keep us fueled during an entire day of 'runner' work (being part of the Allstarz crew it was a prereq) I am still trying to figure out what had possessed me to agree to that.. It then went on to having us assist backstage, run up and down flights of stairs, getting dancers prepared for stage, manning the door, and general 'make-sure-everything-runs-smoothly' kinda duties. So when it came time to chill and actually see the inside of my own change room, I kinda sat on the floor and waited for my feet to stop throbbing. At which point I decided it made more sense to remove my shoes. Running almost an hour behind schedule - totally possible and yet not acceptable at this point, being so, so very tired and needing rejuvenation......Though I guess the break was welcomed.... Well the show got underway, loads of people there and nerves were very present backstage. We did 'Got Moves' and it was awesome, then ran up 3 flights of stairs to our change room for 'The Matrix' in 4 dances time. The Matrix was insane, ppl loved it.. and even though the judges had an almost 'gawking' expression on their face, it seemed that maybe it was just a look of impressed confusion, because the results at adjudication were nothing lined up with something following unimpressed appearances. After the goodbyes to the people who came to watch me, I was off to the Coachman with a few people for something to eat. I was finally done, the work, the stress, the nerves, the adrenalin had all started to simmer to a level close to relaxation, though my feet still hurt, hahaha. Came back just in time to watch the last dance that the rest of my class' girls were in and we hung around waiting for the adjudication. We received a trophy for Best Senior Hip Hop group. We were awarded Diamond for the 2 dances I was in - highest category award. Walked away with a Rosette for coming first in our category and also a Gold Medal for 'Got moves'. We were so tired, but it was totally all worth the smiles in the end.. It was a great show, despite the hiccups and after all was said and done it was home time to rest our weary bodies!

To all of those who came, thanks again.... Watch this space for our 'more fun, end of year show' where we showcase all that Tanya's studio did this year.

Vinyl...

So I took my car in this morning to get the roof vinyl done and although apparently it was somewhat of a tricky request, Chris managed to do a great job. Super stoked, it looks awesome. At first I was all about the High Gloss, I guess what I had in mind to replicate was the vibe and look of the S3. But according to the experts ;) the gloss would scratch far quicker and visibly quicker than that of the matte black. So matte black it is then... Here's what it looks like now .......

Makes Sense?

Graffiti = Street Art

Some people call it vandalism, I call it art. Sure it has it's place.... some places even I would think it could hurt the look of an area. But in the right places with the right skills - it's something I can't simply drive by without admiring. Though, not all of it is beautifully skilled painting, some are just really clever. I dig that.

"Cheers to the freakin' weekend...."

Flip, Friday has arrived and feeling somewhat rejuvenated.. No clue why.. But I don't question the good things, I embrace them. Haha. So it looks like I'm getting my next 'mod' so-to-speak to my car next week. Getting the top done black. I can say without a doubt in my mind that it will look pretty hot once it's done. When you see the best example of what your car can look like (and within your taste) - you generally want that done. So without going OTT, I have bit by bit been doing to it what I would like done to have it ultimately look the way I imagined it to almost 2 years ago when I decided I wanted one. It's such a cool feeling when you get the car you want, and then are able to get it to reach the look I have for it in my mind. So ya, watch this space, will post a pic after it's done. Other than that, as far as cool news goes, I have dancing like allll the time, and it's rad for sure, but the pressure is building up now with show night just around the corner. Fuck, I'm not sure what it is exactly, but I will do anything and everything but as soon as it cones to exercise some form of confidence in front of people - I want to crawl into a ball and hide. I guess it's just who I am. It's the Virgo in me - the fact that I have to be perfect, things have to be perfect, and if for a second I believe I might be less than what I need to be (or have the potential to be) then I want to retreat and lose whatever confidence I have.. I used to be a lot worse - but it's getting better, with comfort, and the 'try-not-give-a-shit' attitude (that's the tough part) Haha, but yeah, becoming less of an issue I guess. So lots of dancing and the World Cup starts in um, 15 minutes.. :) The first SA game is on Sunday, I will go so far as to say that I don't generally give a crap about Rugby or watching much of any sport really. But when the world cup is on, I do let myself (notice the controlled part) get sucked into the vibe of it all. Which I think is great I guess. No need to hate the game.. Look, I wont be wearing a green and gold shirt, that's just a little bit above the passion I carry for it. Summer's on it's way, and all I can say is.. for the most part I'm smiling more than not. So I'm going with everything that makes me...... I think I deserve that? On that note.. it's time to leave my version on Inception and enter reality by responding to the 20 work emails I have. :/

Word of the day

for·ti·tude
n.

Strength of mind that allows one to endure pain or adversity with courage.
[Middle English, from Latin fortitd, from fortis, strong; see bhergh-2 in Indo-European roots.]

Just a thought

People always say to expect the unexpected....so if you expect the unexpected, then the unexpected becomes the expected.....so really, you're just expecting the expected.. :/

Vorsprung durch technik

Ok, mine doesn't look like this.. haha, (and its also not an S3 or RS3 for that matter) but hey, how awesome could it if it wanted to? This awesome.........

As it would seem

Black September

It's not all fun and entertaining thoughts that go through my mind, in fact there are times that very serious issues will get to me and one of them - perhaps due to awareness - really makes me angry. I can't stand the fact that any animal needs to take abuse by the hand of what we like to think of as 'civilised' human beings. What pisses me off even more is the ignorance behind the abuse. The fact that people are hurting and inevitably killing Rhino for something that: 1) is not there's to fucking have, and 2) for no essential reason. Whether the poachers themselves believe in the reason behind the rhino horn is debatable, though I'm pretty sure they don't, its all about money for them. But the demand from the stupid Chinese medicine people is the reason the farming continues. So now, it seems that it is more profitable for the rhino horn myth to remain, so the South African Game farmers have jumped on the bandwagon. Nice. Really. Nice. So for the month of September I will have my black ribbon around my right side mirror in support of the poaching. Not that it's going to change a Goddamn thing, but at least I know I am one of many who are actively creating awareness and en masse perhaps a difference has the potential to be made.

Petition signing: http://wildernessfoundation.co.za/savetherhinos/